Seriously…

other: “is he sleeping yet?!”

me: “no, it’s still early, he sleeps at 12/1am” 

other: “he can’t sleep when his body is hurting”

me: “he can’t sleep bc his body is hurting yet he takes 3 hour naps during the day time?!”

other: “you are no good”

me: “how am i no good when that doesn’t make sense” 

other: “you have a hateful heart” 

me: “i don’t have a hateful heart, you just make too many excuse for him.” 

You need to shut the fuck up because you don’t fucken know shit. 

if my heart is so hateful, then how am i so happy and loving?! Why am I always smiling and laughing trying to bring fucken joy to this doomed planet?

if i’m no good then why do i have people who love me? and how can I LOVE them back?

you make all these damn stupid excuses for him just because you feel fucken sorry for him. yeah i know of his problems, but REALITY CHECK you’re not there for him 11 months of the year and he’s a GROWN ASS MAN who knows how to take care of himself.

i’m trying my best to accept the person that he is, it’s just kinda hard that I put my hardest effort and he puts half of his. This might be a little selfish but, why SHOULD i care for someone who doesn’t care about me?! who doesn’t BOTHER to even call me on holidays/ birthdays/ nor even my graduation. why should i even TRY, when your daughter didn’t know who I was for her 8 years living, until i come to visit now. never mentioned about me once. if you didn’t tell my niece about me, who’s to say that non of your friends and shit knows about me. to you, you only have one brother. 

As of yesterday I too only have one brother, and it’s not you. I tried to understand the situation, but when i was unknown to my own niece, that’s where i lost the effort and respect i had for you. 

When you actually want to be my brother, THEN we’ll talk.